WWE diva Nikki Bella shares feeling 'Confused' after breakup with John Cena
In a recent episode of Total Bellas, Nikki Bella told about her failed relationship with John Cena.
In a clip released by E! News, Bella discusses the relationship, sounding more conflicted than ever.
"I just feel super confused," Bella shared with her family at dinner. "And I miss him more than anything in this world."
Nikki also admitted that she lost a piece of herself along the way.
"I wasn't feeling alive anymore," Bella confesses with a brave heart. "I just kind of became a 'yes girl.' I felt like I lost myself."
She also admitted struggling with her rise to fame than with Cena. She continued that she often feels like two people because of the reality show and social media.
"I started to feel like, here's Nikki Bella and here's Nicole," Nikki told her loved ones. "When I first started being on reality TV and all this stuff, I was me. And then, I was told, 'Don't talk like this. Don't be this.'"
"So Nikki's slogan is 'Fearless Nikki,'" Nikki continued while addressing the camera. "But is Nicole, 'Fearless Nicole?' I have to say for a while, she wasn't... until recently."
"Nikki called off the wedding earlier this month so she could have more time to make a decision with what she wanted in life," an insider close to the pair tells Us. "Calling off the wedding was the right decision at the moment and their relationship only grew from it. It didn't mean that any love was lost, or that they lost any feelings for one another, but they both have realized that they love each other and want to be with one another."
In a recent TODAY Show appearance, Cena said, "For anyone out there speculating on what's going, on, I love her, I wanna be with her, I wanna make her my wife, I wanna be the father of her children."