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Love in the aftermath of marriage: three unhappily married poets tell the truth

Suhas Munshi | Updated on: 20 November 2015, 21:36 IST

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'Poetry, some foolish critic said,

Is the natural language of lovers -

Looking at her even destroyed my prose.'

(The Language of Lovers, Nissim Ezekiel)

In hindsight, one can register a genuine complaint against pursuits of the heart - that you don't encounter your biggest test till the end. Because that's when the real questions come to you. What if the passion cools down as soon as all the worldly resistance yields to it? Or how differently, after the curiosity and the surrender, do you find him or her?

Three celebrated writers, influenced by each other, lived through disastrous first marriages. And wanted to prick the bubble of the dream that others call a blissful married life.

Nissim Ezekiel was the most ardent admirer of women and their sexuality. But something in him always recoiled - often with funny effect - from the banality that actualised affairs offered.

He says to the woman beneath whose dress he once found her to be

'Young

Rewarding to my explorations, certain,

Soft and flowing,

And tender to the touch of love.

'But you are old

With the shop-soiled wisdom

Of drawing-rooms and dowagers.

.

'You are city-cramped my love.

Only flesh remains what it was meant to be.'

(Love Song)

He repeatedly murmurs regret for not having realised in time how far in he's been drawn. Take the case of 'Jewish Wedding in Bombay'.

'During our first serious marriage quarrel she said Why did

you take my virginity from me? I would gladly have

returned it, but not one of the books I had read instructed

me how.'

Ezekiel was of course not alone in suspecting affairs of turning sour and in issuing warnings against failed alliances.

An admirer of Thomas Hardy, John Betjeman, who also wrote with relish about young girls - 'The tennis-playing, biking girl/ The wholly-to-my-liking girl,' - had a married man pushed over the edge and into a high speed collision on a highway in 'Meditation on the A30'.

'She's losing her looks very fast,

She loses her temper all day;

.

At breakfast she said that she wished I was dead -

Thank heavens we don't have to kiss.

.

As he clenches his pipe, his moment is ripe

And the corner's accepting its kill.'

Then there's Thomas Hardy, whom Ezekiel was inspired by and resembled as a writer; in being a prolific writer of prose but considering it incidental to his real love - poetry.

Hardy was particularly cruel to his first wife, who died in two miserable attic rooms. The two had little to say to each other, just a few months after their marriage. The material for 'At an Inn', one imagines, did not need much outside inspiration.

'And we were left alone

As Love's own pair;

Yet never the love-light shone

Between us there!

But that which chilled the breath

Of Afternoon,

And palsied unto death

The pane-fly's tune.'

But the absolute crown for expressing the horror, the panic and anxiety of a failed marriage, must go to Nissim Ezekiel.

In 'Midmonsoon Madness' he shivers as a chill runs up his spine when he realises that the life he's lived was just a blur and his dreams have remained just that, while his wife and children lie beside him in bed.

He expresses the homicidal madness that continued proximity can invoke - an urge to smash everything and start again.

But let's not draw lessons for life through these poems. After all, all three of them celebrated delinquent love also.

Midmonsoon Madness

I know I will go -

From here to anywhere -

Which means nowhere.

It will always rain like this

incessantly upon the past,

and I shall see nothing clearly

except the future stuff of dreams

repeating what has always been.

The things I feared

have come to pass

(was it perhaps because I feared them?)

and when it rains

incessantly upon the night,

I listen to my own madness

saying: smash it up and start again.

I sense the breathing

of my wife and children,

adding to the chill.

(From the Oxford edition of Nissim Ezekiel, Collected Poems, Second Edition)

First published: 20 November 2015, 21:36 IST
 
Suhas Munshi @suhasmunshi

He hasn't been to journalism school, as evident by his refusal to end articles with 'ENDS' or 'EOM'. Principal correspondent at Catch, Suhas studied engineering and wrote code for a living before moving to writing mystery-shrouded-pall-of-gloom crime stories. On being accepted as an intern at Livemint in 2010, he etched PRESS onto his scooter. Some more bylines followed in Hindustan Times, Times of India and Mail Today.

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