Singer Ellie Goulding says she found herself with crippling anxiety upon first making it big on the music scene.
The 30-year-old British pop star reveals upon gaining fame for her 2010 song, 'Lights,' she started questioning her worth as a musician, reported Entertainment Tonight.
'My new life as a pop star certainly wasn't as glamorous as all my friends from home thought. Secretly, I was really struggling physically and emotionally. I think part of what sparked my panic attacks was not feeling confident enough to believe in myself.
'I was scared I wasn't as good of a singer as everyone thought I was. And as the stakes grew, I was afraid of letting everyone, including myself, down,' she says.
Goulding even recalls being 'paralyzed with nerves every time' she was to perform on TV, especially when she was to take the stage at the GRAMMYs last year.
'I told myself that this was exactly where I was supposed to be and if other people believed in me, I had to start believing in myself,' she says.